oh im 36 hours sober in chicago
lost my damn phone
homeless man offered me a cigarette
his home doesnt define him or the smoke
but i still said no
*i dont need a substance for catharsis
been asking, what makes you feel thoughtless? what brings you to that trance, the embodiment of body, meditation of mind, eternal patience
that feeling of what existence was like before life, before the big bang, its all the same place its all the same trip
meditation=before life=before creation
it cant be explained i cant explain
idfk
cant find that place of thoughtlessness
not without substance
/substance substance sometimes sex mostly
substance
change in
meditation
influences the whole equation
a plague on life = a plague in the creation i exist in
cant find that place
broke in
meditation=broken life=broken creation
just need those dopamine* levels back
june 24th, 2021
