oh im 36 hours sober in chicago
lost my damn phone
homeless man offered me a cigaretteÂ
his home doesnt define him or the smoke
but i still said noÂ
*i dont need a substance for catharsisÂ
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been asking, what makes you feel thoughtless? what brings you to that trance, the embodiment of body, meditation of mind, eternal patience
that feeling of what existence was like before life, before the big bang, its all the same place its all the same tripÂ
meditation=before life=before creation
it cant be explained i cant explainÂ
idfk
cant find that place of thoughtlessnessÂ
not without substanceÂ
/substance substance sometimes sex mostly
substance
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change in
meditationÂ
influences the whole equationÂ
a plague on life = a plague in the creation i exist inÂ
cant find that place
broke in
meditation=broken life=broken creation
just need those dopamine* levels back
june 24th, 2021
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