boddah dont look at me. your perception got the best of me. far to focused on myself. feel the need to excuse my state of mind im lost in attention. lack of reason, feeling broken in pieces. feigning for an external force to blame it all on. carry on carry on i create my own problems. unliving fixation faded in grey. headspace unforgiving as my head starts spinning, swimming in circles thoughts are in cursive, curious of the pieces of me laying on the floor. a new reflection in every shard, so far from my future. ew im disgusting. numbing sensation, numbing sensation, nothings sedated. outside of myself bugs crawl from my mouth. choking
decomposing
june 25th, 2020